Ever notice that when you first start a diet you feel really hungry?
Yesterday was the first day of school. That means that I am waking up 3 hours earlier than I have been AND that means that eating breakfast 3 hours earlier. By the time I got to my last client of the day my stomach was doing flip flops.
My eating schedule is all messed up!!!
However, I am looking forward to the more structured day so I can actually have an eating schedule.
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Anyway, my first day back to work and I had several comments made about my weight. Most of which went like this: "You look good, it looks like you kept off the weight"
Part of me was flattered, part of me was like What the f*ck?
It took me about an hour but really - I'm over it. Unfortunately, in my line of work I have gotten some pretty insensitive remarks if not down right rude. It's obviously their issue and not mine.
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Moving on, I am hoping that I can become a morning exercise person. Due to the fact that I work 12 hours most days - by the time I get home my ass is drawn to the couch...not the bike. So I talked to the Gym teacher at school (he is a 5am runner) and he said that given time and a lot of motivation its easy and your body will adjust. So my plan is over the next week or so to try to get up a half hour earlier (to do at least half a p90x workout).
This is going to be a big challenge as I am NOT a morning person, but it will be my best shot at actually getting in some work.
I can do this.
So I guess I should go to bed if I am going to be an earlier riser.
Lots of love
-K
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
Motivating Factor
I just finished reading an e-mail from a really fabulous friend. She wrote in response to my lackluster blog (yesterday)... in fact her e-mail was so long that my blackberry couldn't support it so I had to go to my computer. Then I decided I should write.
I had a dream last night (and I love dream analyzing) about food. I was part of a competition to put together meals at a carnival that would be healthy and nutritious.
That pretty much sums up my life. I feel like I am competing with myself (on most days) to eat healthy and stay on track in a crazy carnival full of bad choices and unhealthy food.
Anyway, I am gearing up for a day full of meetings and a weekend of outings with my cousin (who is coming into town tonight). I am putting my game brain on. I feel good today, which usually helps me make good choices.
Catch ya on the flip side
-K
p.s. JWils I love you too! Thank you for the motivation!
These are two websites that my friend shared, I checked them out briefly but they seem really interesting(and motivating):
I had a dream last night (and I love dream analyzing) about food. I was part of a competition to put together meals at a carnival that would be healthy and nutritious.
That pretty much sums up my life. I feel like I am competing with myself (on most days) to eat healthy and stay on track in a crazy carnival full of bad choices and unhealthy food.
Anyway, I am gearing up for a day full of meetings and a weekend of outings with my cousin (who is coming into town tonight). I am putting my game brain on. I feel good today, which usually helps me make good choices.
Catch ya on the flip side
-K
p.s. JWils I love you too! Thank you for the motivation!
These are two websites that my friend shared, I checked them out briefly but they seem really interesting(and motivating):
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Trouble
This week has been busy. Between multiple venue appointments, crazy client visits, late night er visits and eye twitching that could make someone insane I have not taken good care of my own needs.
I am having a lot of trouble getting back on the band wagon.
I am struggling to get my head back in the game.
I need some motivation.
I went back and read some of my eariler posts. I need to find my way back to that place.
Any motivation tips?
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School starts on Monday. A routine will hopefully help me. That's usually when I do my best. When I have the structure.
On a positive note: I did lose 8 pounds this summer. Despite the many celebrations and birthdays.
Much love
-K
I am having a lot of trouble getting back on the band wagon.
I am struggling to get my head back in the game.
I need some motivation.
I went back and read some of my eariler posts. I need to find my way back to that place.
Any motivation tips?
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School starts on Monday. A routine will hopefully help me. That's usually when I do my best. When I have the structure.
On a positive note: I did lose 8 pounds this summer. Despite the many celebrations and birthdays.
Much love
-K
Monday, August 23, 2010
Certifiable
So we are officially Internationally Certified Scuba Divers! And my body is paying for it.
Apparently, my body is extremely positively buoyant. I needed to carry an extra 40 pounds of weight to get myself to sink. Not only did I need to have three people help me stand up once I got all my gear on, but I fell flat on my back when attempting to walk up the beach.
Naturally this has me thinking about my body and my weight. Fat floats, its less dense than water therefore creating a positively buoyant body. This does not make me feel so great about my body.
I also think I look terrible in a wet suit, all I could think was beached whale, beached whale!
This furthers my motivation to lose the poundage.
However, when I put on the first 20 pounds of weight (which is attached to a belt) all I could think about is: I used to weigh more that this (I used to carry almost 30 more pounds on my body) and this sucks. To carry the weight that I once carried (and thankfully, no longer do) did make me feel a lot better about the weight I have lost.
That is motivation to keep the poundage off.
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I am going to enjoy my rainy day off.
-K
Apparently, my body is extremely positively buoyant. I needed to carry an extra 40 pounds of weight to get myself to sink. Not only did I need to have three people help me stand up once I got all my gear on, but I fell flat on my back when attempting to walk up the beach.
Naturally this has me thinking about my body and my weight. Fat floats, its less dense than water therefore creating a positively buoyant body. This does not make me feel so great about my body.
I also think I look terrible in a wet suit, all I could think was beached whale, beached whale!
This furthers my motivation to lose the poundage.
However, when I put on the first 20 pounds of weight (which is attached to a belt) all I could think about is: I used to weigh more that this (I used to carry almost 30 more pounds on my body) and this sucks. To carry the weight that I once carried (and thankfully, no longer do) did make me feel a lot better about the weight I have lost.
That is motivation to keep the poundage off.
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I am going to enjoy my rainy day off.
-K
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Men: read with caution
I'm having one of those days. You know, the type where you crave chocolate all day long, go from crying to cursing someone out in .5 seconds and just want to go to bed.
Currently, I am someone most people want to avoid because they are not sure what this person will do in any given moment.
This week my dog got sick, got into a few arguments with loved ones, and today on my way to a clients house my car broke down...in the middle of an intersection. Needless to say I had what closely resembled a nervous breakdown sitting in my immobile vehicle while passerby's yelled, honked and told me I should move while not offering to help me move.
On top of it all I have some of the worst cramps I have had in ages and a headache that could crush a 500 pound man.
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I just want to eat some chocolate.
So I will.
My wonderful fiance greeted me at the door when I finally arrived home with a hug and some chocolate. I won't gorge myself, I just really need to do it for myself, my cramps and some sanity.
I read an article this week about nurturing your bodies wants. That if you give it what it craves (in moderation) that you will find yourself more satisfied and more healthy. So today I am giving it what it wants. I had eggos for breakfast (the whole wheat special k ones that are like 70 calories each-yippee!) I got a skinny latte while shopping/laundering, ate some watermelon , had a pepper and moz salad for lunch and some pesto pasta with veggies for dinner. All very satisfying (even though the rest of my body is screaming, my tummy is happy) and all within my "limits." I gotta get back to eating more fruit and veggies - but since my car broke down before my supermarket trip - that may have to wait until I can actually get to the supermarket.
But here is to a better day. While the next few days are crazy (with a conference tomorrow, early morning scuba Saturday and a family party Sunday) I am going to give it all my effort to stay on top of myself.
I usually find it the hardest to come back after I have been off track for a while. These are the times that I have to work extra extra hard, and so I will try.
But for now, I am going to have my chocolate.
Love!
-K
Currently, I am someone most people want to avoid because they are not sure what this person will do in any given moment.
This week my dog got sick, got into a few arguments with loved ones, and today on my way to a clients house my car broke down...in the middle of an intersection. Needless to say I had what closely resembled a nervous breakdown sitting in my immobile vehicle while passerby's yelled, honked and told me I should move while not offering to help me move.
On top of it all I have some of the worst cramps I have had in ages and a headache that could crush a 500 pound man.
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I just want to eat some chocolate.
So I will.
My wonderful fiance greeted me at the door when I finally arrived home with a hug and some chocolate. I won't gorge myself, I just really need to do it for myself, my cramps and some sanity.
I read an article this week about nurturing your bodies wants. That if you give it what it craves (in moderation) that you will find yourself more satisfied and more healthy. So today I am giving it what it wants. I had eggos for breakfast (the whole wheat special k ones that are like 70 calories each-yippee!) I got a skinny latte while shopping/laundering, ate some watermelon , had a pepper and moz salad for lunch and some pesto pasta with veggies for dinner. All very satisfying (even though the rest of my body is screaming, my tummy is happy) and all within my "limits." I gotta get back to eating more fruit and veggies - but since my car broke down before my supermarket trip - that may have to wait until I can actually get to the supermarket.
But here is to a better day. While the next few days are crazy (with a conference tomorrow, early morning scuba Saturday and a family party Sunday) I am going to give it all my effort to stay on top of myself.
I usually find it the hardest to come back after I have been off track for a while. These are the times that I have to work extra extra hard, and so I will try.
But for now, I am going to have my chocolate.
Love!
-K
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
I'm baaack!
Phew! The past few weeks have put me into a tailspin.
I have had the most incredible (and busy) summer! With that said, a few things happened (and didn't happen) that I was not planning on. Which means that some of my goals were not quite met, but I am okay with that. Honestly.
I got two messages this morning saying that I needed to come back to the blog. So here I am. Getting myself back to where I want to be.
I did, unfortunately, gain 2 pounds in the last few weeks. Considering the amount of "fun" I have been engaging in I am okay with it.
My friend actually sent me quite the motivational e-mail. I have to give her props too. She did something that us "average" girls strive for and judge all the "skinny" girls for doing (out of jealousy). I am so proud of you!
She also told me that someone referred to me as "skinny" - HOW COOL! I love that. I know that its petty and silly, but it just feels so good when someone you don't know or just met calls you skinny. It feels good.
So I am going to continue to work on my goals, eat better, and exercise almost daily. AND blog consistently again.
Last week and a half of summer and I'm keeping it real! Ha.
Love,
-K
I have had the most incredible (and busy) summer! With that said, a few things happened (and didn't happen) that I was not planning on. Which means that some of my goals were not quite met, but I am okay with that. Honestly.
I got two messages this morning saying that I needed to come back to the blog. So here I am. Getting myself back to where I want to be.
I did, unfortunately, gain 2 pounds in the last few weeks. Considering the amount of "fun" I have been engaging in I am okay with it.
My friend actually sent me quite the motivational e-mail. I have to give her props too. She did something that us "average" girls strive for and judge all the "skinny" girls for doing (out of jealousy). I am so proud of you!
She also told me that someone referred to me as "skinny" - HOW COOL! I love that. I know that its petty and silly, but it just feels so good when someone you don't know or just met calls you skinny. It feels good.
So I am going to continue to work on my goals, eat better, and exercise almost daily. AND blog consistently again.
Last week and a half of summer and I'm keeping it real! Ha.
Love,
-K
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Missing in Action
I know that I have been away from my beloved blog for too long.
As hard as it is to admit..I must do it.
I have not been taking care of myself the way I want to or should be. As much as I want to blame the celebrations and the weekends away its all on me. I have to take full responsibility for being MIA with regards to my goals.
I need to take responsibility for putting my health to the way side and get back on track for real. I also (and this is the hard part) need to forgive myself and need to move past this.
This weekend I am, again, going to be away. However, my friend (who has been super supportive) promised lots of exercise to make up for any poor food and beverage choices made.
Starting next week I am promising to go back to blogging at least 4 times a week and going back to keeping track of everything that I put into my body.
Until then I am going to make better choices and get my head back in the game. After all I have a wedding to prepare for, and in the words of my awesome trainer I am "going to be one kick ass bride"!!!!!!!!
See you all on Monday!
Love
K
As hard as it is to admit..I must do it.
I have not been taking care of myself the way I want to or should be. As much as I want to blame the celebrations and the weekends away its all on me. I have to take full responsibility for being MIA with regards to my goals.
I need to take responsibility for putting my health to the way side and get back on track for real. I also (and this is the hard part) need to forgive myself and need to move past this.
This weekend I am, again, going to be away. However, my friend (who has been super supportive) promised lots of exercise to make up for any poor food and beverage choices made.
Starting next week I am promising to go back to blogging at least 4 times a week and going back to keeping track of everything that I put into my body.
Until then I am going to make better choices and get my head back in the game. After all I have a wedding to prepare for, and in the words of my awesome trainer I am "going to be one kick ass bride"!!!!!!!!
See you all on Monday!
Love
K
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