NEW!

I want to turn a new leaf. Whatever that means.

I have been away from the bloggosphere for a while now, and over the last month have been thinking about if I should go back/what to write about/why am I doing it.

Initially, I started this blog because I needed support. I wanted to lose weight. While that’s almost always true I want this to be about more. I want it to be an avenue for something bigger, better and more of what I am forever searching for.

Yet, I often struggle with what that means. What am I searching for??? I’m content, but often feel like I need to do something more. What the hell does that mean?

After putting a ton of thought into this (and being harassed a by a few people) I decided I do, in fact, want to come back to the blogger. I like to write, especially about myself. What? I’m a tad egocentric, sue me. What I want to write about is my “journey” what I am doing with myself and who I want to be.

Don’t get me wrong, I think I’m pretty awesome, but there are certain things that I envy in others and want for myself. So, rather than feeling that ugly word I want to do something about it. I want to get as close as possible to the Ultimate Me I have pictured in my head.

So this is what I have decided I want to do. For now anyway.

Learn to upcycle stuff.
This is a concept that I LOVE. I have so many ideas my head may explode. Now I need to inherit *cough* some power tools and I know someone who has a house full of stuff dying to be upcycled. Little sister, I forsee some bondage time in NY happening real soon!

Go back to doing Yoga.
I recently experienced a VERY scary panic attack. Knowing that there is nothing you can do to stop it once it starts is (for me) the worst part – control issues much? So I want to relax more, be a little more flexible, centered and grounded. There is a Yoga studio up the road from me that is 50 bucks for the first month for unlimited classes. I, no doubt, will not be able to afford the classes afterwards, but for one month I am going to take full advantage.

Lose these damn pounds.
Enough said. I know that I am one of those people that is almost never satisfied with my weight, but I will try my hardest to accept what I can be.

Save some moooola.
This is a much easier thing to say than to do. But friends, we may need to find some real cheap (free?) things to do if we want to hang out. I read this little quip/article about how Lady Gaga saved this couple $$$. They had a Gaga jar; everytime they heard Lady Gaga on the radio they donated one dollar to the jar. Over a year they saved over 6 thousand! Brilliant!!! I probably won’t do that, but I do need to sort out all my debt. Paying more in student loans than rent puts a serious dent in my funds, despite working three jobs. Any tips about saving money are greatly appreciated.

Finally, change the name of the blog.
I am changing the blog name because my blog (idea) has changed. I am taking my current life and upgrading it :)

More to come!
Kate