Inspiration

I wanted to included this in my post yesterday, but I wanted to ask the Author's permission first.

A wonderful woman (I met while working in a clinic) writes a blog about her health/body/body image and past struggles. I have been following her blog for a while now and I think she is truly inspiring. She has be able to work on her own stuff and has found a "good place" that one day I hope to be in. She writes with honesty and humor and so often I have read her posts and been like "I totally get that" and sometimes I read in awe that she has been working so hard to accept who she is and continues to maintain her health. I even love the blog URL -anotherpieceofcake. How awesome. Anyway, I urge you to check her out.

I don't want to give away her history or what she is about but one post in particular spoke to me. She spoke about learning how to eat "healthy portions" without measuring (or obsessing) and figuring out what her Ideal Body Weight (IBW) actually is vs what she wanted it to be.

That is SO where I want to be.

I am very resistant to measuring my food, because when I am not at home, I don't have control over 1 cup of cereal or 3 oz of meat - PLUS who wants to measure all of their food? Thats just a pain in the ass. BUT if I can learn to "eyeball" a healthy portion then I won't have to worry about always washing my measuring cups and I can be successful outside of my home.

Also, as I stated, I know that I can not maintain a weight below 145. I am 5'8. I have got HIPS. There is no way that any weight below that is realistic. Sure I wouldn't mind being a size 4 and super svelte, but I will be more than content being a size 8-10 and fit (and probably about 150).

However, this whole above statement brings me to an issue I have been internalizing and struggling with along my journey. Why am I so obsessed with that number on the scale? Why are all my issues with numbers? My weight, my measurements, the number of push-ups I can do...its all so irritating.

But I am hoping that when I can learn to master all of these skills (and they are all skills one learns) I can really begin to work on myself and my perception of myself and be less obsessive about the numbers and the measurements.

Today's Quote of the day comes from this so inspiring blog that I speak of: "If you treat it well, your body will find its equilibrium. It will reside at a healthy weight."

Shout out: goes to all the girls and boys out there who can totally relate.

Back on track today:
Cereal with milk
Banana
Apple
Carrots with hummus
Queso wrap
granola bar
Chicken
Corn on the cob
stuffing (yes!)
Watermelon

Much love
-K