Amazing

Yesterday was a really tough day for me. I can't really explain why other than just having a really self defeating kind of day.

I want to take this time to thank all my amazing friends and family who, after yesterdays post, have given me all the love and support (plus a whole lot more) that has helped me have a better day today. Even more - all of you reminded me to keep my head up and you sent your love out to me. In fact you did that so well that today I am radiating with all of your positive feedback.

For that reason alone, I am SO glad that I created this blog. Without putting my own bad mood on this blog I would never have received the love and support (that was so desperately needed) from all of the people who matter to me the most. I am pretty certain, knowing my track record, that had I not gotten the support from you I would have fallen completely off the wagon. I would let this week defeat me.

A good friend reminded me today that enjoying a week like this in an indulgence, and having an indulgence is okay as long as you don't overindulge. I like that sentiment. Making choices that are good/okay/better for me (but may not be the best) and enjoying them, so long as I have an end date to this indulgence - Sunday.

I also need to accept that this is going to happen to me from time to time and that I will need to work with the consequences, even if its a weight gain.

I gripped to my trainer last night about my bad attitude and my lack of exercise and poor food choices. He simply responded: "It will all come back to you, you just need to make it happen." Make it happen, Kate. So that's what I am going to have to do.

Tonight we are going to a Bistro in town. I looked at the menu and picked out a few things that will be good choices (of course they are the more pricey ones) and I will pick between those few things.

As for tomorrow.. I already know what I am eating so I just have to plan the rest of my day around that.

Again, thank you all so much. I could not do this without you. I love you.

I am ending with this quasi-quote of the day. Its from an e-mail that a (male) friend of mine sent me and brought a tear to my eye, it was very much appreciated.

"I also wanted to tell you something that more men should tell women: you are enough just the way you are, you are loved, and no matter what shape and size you decide is best for you you're perfect in my book. You are a radiant joy and I miss being around you."

Love
-K