As a friend so delicately stated to me via text I am a 2 days late on my blog..so I am getting on it.
Thank you for the support.
I have no excuse for not updating yesterday, I just forgot.
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Yesterday I had a conversation with a fabulous friend about food (and old flames/habits). After sharing with her that I was deleting some things in my life she noted that I was in a stage of cleansing.
I like the idea of that. I am cleansing not just my body but my mind and soul too. I am riding myself of bad/negative habits and things that are counterproductive to my ultimate goal.
I have begun to change my eating habits, I have been working on changing my self defeating thoughts and I have changed my workout habits. I definitely feel like I am sweating out all the bad things in my body. I think in the past week I have sweat more than I have in all my 25 years combined.
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Today is a rest day. I was thinking about taking a spin class, but I woke up this morning and my body was screaming for a break. So I am resting. I will admit though, it felt odd this morning to get up and not almost immediately start a work out. And (dare I say it) I am actually looking forward to my work out tomorrow. What is happening here?!?
Now I am planning my weekend (4th of July!) to make sure I feel satisfied without the guilt.
Shout out goes to Sam- thanks for the love and woo for the last day of this month and here's to a wayy better July!
Quote of the day: Upon having a favorite food discussion my fabulous friend declared "No wonder man! A person's favorite food is ham, its a wonder what their body looks like!"
You are what you eat! I would be a carrot. BORING!
What I ate today:
Corn flakes
Milk
Banana
Apple
Turkey Sandwich
Carrots
Corn
Chicken Sausage and Peppers
Cantaloupe
Popcorn
xoxo
-K
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
M'am step back from the food.
Summer time and the living -should be- easy.
I have been very close to triggering today. What I mean is that now that I am trying to become more aware of my "food issues" I have noticed that I have a lot of triggers. I know I wrote about my emotional eating and the situational eating, both of which are triggers.
I have also discovered that some food is a trigger for me to over eat. There are certain foods that make me want to eat and eat and eat some more.
This is the tricky part. Part of me wants to ignore these foods completely the other part of me wants to incorporate them and trust that I will have some self control. I just worry that I won't, which will lead to some serious emotional eating.
Some of my trigger foods include (but are not limited to):
Doritos
Sour cream and onion potato chips
chocolate
cake
chocolate cake
brownies
pretty much all candy
It's all the "bad" stuff. These are all things that I like, and want to be able to enjoy once in a while, but its almost impossible to buy single servings (with the exception of the chips) of these items. Then I binge or take a serving size for 3.
Anyway, this is what I did today. I really wanted some doritos. So On my shopping trip I picked up a box of the 100 calorie snack packs. We had turkey burgers corn on the cob and chips for dinner. So I wouldn't eat all 5 of the packs I ate my burger and corn before I ate the doritos. It worked. I was able to satisfy the craving and didn't over eat because I was pretty much full when I started to eat them.
If only I could apply this to all of my trigger foods.
One day I will!
Shout out goes to Tom, for not allowing me to take myself too seriously.
Quote of the day: "Have an aim in life - then don't forget to pull the trigger" - unknown
What I ate today:
Protein shake
banana
Chicken Sandwich with lettuce
Watermelon
Chex mix
Turkey Burger
Corn
Doritos
Cantaloupe
Activity: P90x Legs and Back and training - double the fun
Love love love
-K
I have been very close to triggering today. What I mean is that now that I am trying to become more aware of my "food issues" I have noticed that I have a lot of triggers. I know I wrote about my emotional eating and the situational eating, both of which are triggers.
I have also discovered that some food is a trigger for me to over eat. There are certain foods that make me want to eat and eat and eat some more.
This is the tricky part. Part of me wants to ignore these foods completely the other part of me wants to incorporate them and trust that I will have some self control. I just worry that I won't, which will lead to some serious emotional eating.
Some of my trigger foods include (but are not limited to):
Doritos
Sour cream and onion potato chips
chocolate
cake
chocolate cake
brownies
pretty much all candy
It's all the "bad" stuff. These are all things that I like, and want to be able to enjoy once in a while, but its almost impossible to buy single servings (with the exception of the chips) of these items. Then I binge or take a serving size for 3.
Anyway, this is what I did today. I really wanted some doritos. So On my shopping trip I picked up a box of the 100 calorie snack packs. We had turkey burgers corn on the cob and chips for dinner. So I wouldn't eat all 5 of the packs I ate my burger and corn before I ate the doritos. It worked. I was able to satisfy the craving and didn't over eat because I was pretty much full when I started to eat them.
If only I could apply this to all of my trigger foods.
One day I will!
Shout out goes to Tom, for not allowing me to take myself too seriously.
Quote of the day: "Have an aim in life - then don't forget to pull the trigger" - unknown
What I ate today:
Protein shake
banana
Chicken Sandwich with lettuce
Watermelon
Chex mix
Turkey Burger
Corn
Doritos
Cantaloupe
Activity: P90x Legs and Back and training - double the fun
Love love love
-K
Sunday, June 27, 2010
B-O-O H-O-O
Today was weigh in day.
A big fat zero.
When I got on the scale I knew that this week was tough due to last day of school, Tom's birthday and my friends birthday. So I am not really surprised, but it still didn't stop me from wanting to kick the scale across the room.
This attitude is self defeating. You know, when you expect miracles to happen - and then they don't happen - and you become deflated which could cause an all out binge. If this happened to me a few months ago (not losing weight) I would have given up. I would have gone home and ate everything I laid my eyes on.
Not today.
Sure, I was pissed. BUT I didn't allow it to get to me for more than a few minutes. I complained to Tom (and Nancy) then we did our Yoga work out. I didn't binge or eat some crappy food. I just told myself that this week would be better. It will be better.
So my very appropriate quote of the day: Cry me a river, build me a bridge and get over it - unknown
Shout out to the Naninator - who listened to me bitch.
*I am still working on my little research project, I am waiting for some more feedback, but what I have got so far is very interesting...
What I ate today:
Protein Shake
Rice cake with Almond butter (yum!)
Orange
Flax Seed Crisps
Chicken
Roasted Potatoes
Salad
Corn on the Cob
Brownie
Grapes
P90x-Yoga. Silly me thought this would be easy. Nope.
Weight: 164 - still down 6!
xo
-K
A big fat zero.
When I got on the scale I knew that this week was tough due to last day of school, Tom's birthday and my friends birthday. So I am not really surprised, but it still didn't stop me from wanting to kick the scale across the room.
This attitude is self defeating. You know, when you expect miracles to happen - and then they don't happen - and you become deflated which could cause an all out binge. If this happened to me a few months ago (not losing weight) I would have given up. I would have gone home and ate everything I laid my eyes on.
Not today.
Sure, I was pissed. BUT I didn't allow it to get to me for more than a few minutes. I complained to Tom (and Nancy) then we did our Yoga work out. I didn't binge or eat some crappy food. I just told myself that this week would be better. It will be better.
So my very appropriate quote of the day: Cry me a river, build me a bridge and get over it - unknown
Shout out to the Naninator - who listened to me bitch.
*I am still working on my little research project, I am waiting for some more feedback, but what I have got so far is very interesting...
What I ate today:
Protein Shake
Rice cake with Almond butter (yum!)
Orange
Flax Seed Crisps
Chicken
Roasted Potatoes
Salad
Corn on the Cob
Brownie
Grapes
P90x-Yoga. Silly me thought this would be easy. Nope.
Weight: 164 - still down 6!
xo
-K
Saturday, June 26, 2010
No, I am not pregnant!!!
I was asked for the third time (in one year) if I am pregnant. This time by a stranger in a grocery store...and to make it even better she actually touched my stomach while asking when I was due.
There is nothing more "I am fat" affirming than being asked if you are pregnant when you aren't.
People astound me on a regular basis. I just can't get over peoples chutzpah to touch and then ask a perfect stranger (who may just have a little extra belly fat) when they are having a baby. First of all how is that any of your business ? Second, I DON'T KNOW YOU! Don't touch me!
I should have bitch slapped her.
All three people who have asked me this obnoxious question have been embarrassed after I tell them that I am not, in fact, pregnant. So why even put yourself in that situation? Spare yourself the embarrassment and don't comment on a stranger, or anyones, belly size.
Consider me annoyed.
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Anyway, P90x is still going strong. Today was chest and arms and it feels good!
Shout out goes to Erik, may you sit in Grandma's lap for all eternity.
Quote of the day: "The road to truth is long, and lined the entire way with obnoxious bastards"
-Jablokov
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What I ate today:
Protein shake
Reduced fat blueberry muffin
Latte
carrots
apple
Chicken
Potato
Broccoli
Orange
Lots-o-love
-K
There is nothing more "I am fat" affirming than being asked if you are pregnant when you aren't.
People astound me on a regular basis. I just can't get over peoples chutzpah to touch and then ask a perfect stranger (who may just have a little extra belly fat) when they are having a baby. First of all how is that any of your business ? Second, I DON'T KNOW YOU! Don't touch me!
I should have bitch slapped her.
All three people who have asked me this obnoxious question have been embarrassed after I tell them that I am not, in fact, pregnant. So why even put yourself in that situation? Spare yourself the embarrassment and don't comment on a stranger, or anyones, belly size.
Consider me annoyed.
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Anyway, P90x is still going strong. Today was chest and arms and it feels good!
Shout out goes to Erik, may you sit in Grandma's lap for all eternity.
Quote of the day: "The road to truth is long, and lined the entire way with obnoxious bastards"
-Jablokov
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What I ate today:
Protein shake
Reduced fat blueberry muffin
Latte
carrots
apple
Chicken
Potato
Broccoli
Orange
Lots-o-love
-K
Friday, June 25, 2010
Ice cream and cake
Two of my summer weaknesses. Ice cream and cake. I don't even eat ice cream at home, but something about going out for ice cream on a hot summer day...mmmmmmmmmm.
Today a good friend of mine turned 30. Tonight we are going out to celebrate (I am DD) to a delicious Mexican restaurant, and today we went to the beach. Enter ice cream. I packed a bunch of fruit with me, so I wouldn't be tempted by the typical beach food and factored in some room for my ice cream - chocolate peanut butter cup. It was worth it.
I am trying my hardest to balance these types of things. Being able to eat a yummy treat once in a while, having it not "ruin" my eating habits and not feeling guilty about it. Being honest, I felt guilty about the ice cream for a few minutes and had to do some serious positive self talk to get over it.
I want to be able to live without having to worry about parties, and tracking all of my calories. I want to just be able to do it. I want it to become like a second nature. It sounds impossible, but I am hopeful that it will happen. One day.
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I did not blog yesterday. My first missed one in 18 days. Unfortunately, when we get storms up here our internet craps out. I also had to work and then Tom and I went on a date. But I did well, by my own standards. I even counted out some candy to bring with me to the movie and drank lots of water.
Yesterday we began the real P90x workouts. Its actually kind of fun, although today was pylometrics (which I HATE with a fiery burning passion) and it was INTENSE. Good thing for modification. I am really liking the way it makes me feel.
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Todays shout out goes to Leah, happy birthday!
Quote of the day: Try your best and forget the rest -P90x guy
What I ate today:
Protein bar
Orange
Apple
Chex Cereal with Milk
Chocolate PB ice cream
Carrots
House Salad
Fajitas or Tacos (I checked the menu and its between these two- I counted the calories)
Diet Coke
Ciao
-K
Today a good friend of mine turned 30. Tonight we are going out to celebrate (I am DD) to a delicious Mexican restaurant, and today we went to the beach. Enter ice cream. I packed a bunch of fruit with me, so I wouldn't be tempted by the typical beach food and factored in some room for my ice cream - chocolate peanut butter cup. It was worth it.
I am trying my hardest to balance these types of things. Being able to eat a yummy treat once in a while, having it not "ruin" my eating habits and not feeling guilty about it. Being honest, I felt guilty about the ice cream for a few minutes and had to do some serious positive self talk to get over it.
I want to be able to live without having to worry about parties, and tracking all of my calories. I want to just be able to do it. I want it to become like a second nature. It sounds impossible, but I am hopeful that it will happen. One day.
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I did not blog yesterday. My first missed one in 18 days. Unfortunately, when we get storms up here our internet craps out. I also had to work and then Tom and I went on a date. But I did well, by my own standards. I even counted out some candy to bring with me to the movie and drank lots of water.
Yesterday we began the real P90x workouts. Its actually kind of fun, although today was pylometrics (which I HATE with a fiery burning passion) and it was INTENSE. Good thing for modification. I am really liking the way it makes me feel.
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Todays shout out goes to Leah, happy birthday!
Quote of the day: Try your best and forget the rest -P90x guy
What I ate today:
Protein bar
Orange
Apple
Chex Cereal with Milk
Chocolate PB ice cream
Carrots
House Salad
Fajitas or Tacos (I checked the menu and its between these two- I counted the calories)
Diet Coke
Ciao
-K
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
The Summer of Kate
First week of Summer!
I love summer. I love the smell, the beach, the sun, and the food.
Especially the food.
However, this summer I don't have that warm and fuzzy feeling...instead I am suffering from a mixture of tension and egocentricism (yup, I made that word up).
I am incredibly worried about the unstructured time of the Summer. I am only working three days a week BUT a big part of my summer duties is community outings which equal a lot of eating out. I do a decent job of managing myself when I am scheduled to be at work for 10-12 hours a day, but having all that time to myself...I could self destruct. Enter tension.
Incoming!!! My inflated ego. I actually wouldn't call myself egocentric, however, I do have a pretty good sense that I can, in fact, control myself. So...I have dubbed this summer The Summer of Kate. This summer is a turning point for me. I am going to work on all of my "stuff' - all my wobbly bits, my eating habits and I will have to face all of the unstructured times and all the celebrations. I will do it all successfully because I know that I can.
A list of events that I need to plan around:
*Community outings including:
Aquarium
Pizza and Ice Cream (at least twice)
Bowling
Movies
Scavenger Hunt
*My baby sisters 21st birthday
*Tina and Gordon visit from Venice
*My Birthday
*At least 3 other birthdays
*The 4th of July
*Beer Festival
And all of the surprise occasions
So the strategizing begins. This will be my summer. Summer 2010 - Summer of Kate.
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Shout out goes to my ego
Quote of the day: Egoism is the very essence of a noble soul. - Nietzsche
Today I took the P90x fit test...here are the results:
My resting heart rate: 70
Pull-ups: 8 (with an assist)
Push-ups: 5
Toe Touch: +2 1/2
Wall Squat: 1 minute and 3 seconds
Bicep Curl: using 10 pounds in each hand- 10
In & Outs: 30
Heart Rate Maximizer - after 2 minutes of jumping jacks
Heart Rate immediately following: 150
One minute following: 120
Two minutes following: 84
Three minutes following: 82
Four minutes following: 80
What I ate today:
Protein Shake
Banana
Bison Burger - yummy with almost half the fat and calories of beef
Carrots
Apple
Iced Latte -Jess, you would be proud. I used a reusable cup :)
BBQ Chicken wrap
Doritos
Watermelon
Orange
Happy Summer!
-K
A Big P.S.
Apologies to the friend who complained about yesterdays post. I don't think Tom wants two girlfriends as of right now, but check back in seven more years (the "itch") he may change his mind ;)
I love summer. I love the smell, the beach, the sun, and the food.
Especially the food.
However, this summer I don't have that warm and fuzzy feeling...instead I am suffering from a mixture of tension and egocentricism (yup, I made that word up).
I am incredibly worried about the unstructured time of the Summer. I am only working three days a week BUT a big part of my summer duties is community outings which equal a lot of eating out. I do a decent job of managing myself when I am scheduled to be at work for 10-12 hours a day, but having all that time to myself...I could self destruct. Enter tension.
Incoming!!! My inflated ego. I actually wouldn't call myself egocentric, however, I do have a pretty good sense that I can, in fact, control myself. So...I have dubbed this summer The Summer of Kate. This summer is a turning point for me. I am going to work on all of my "stuff' - all my wobbly bits, my eating habits and I will have to face all of the unstructured times and all the celebrations. I will do it all successfully because I know that I can.
A list of events that I need to plan around:
*Community outings including:
Aquarium
Pizza and Ice Cream (at least twice)
Bowling
Movies
Scavenger Hunt
*My baby sisters 21st birthday
*Tina and Gordon visit from Venice
*My Birthday
*At least 3 other birthdays
*The 4th of July
*Beer Festival
And all of the surprise occasions
So the strategizing begins. This will be my summer. Summer 2010 - Summer of Kate.
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Shout out goes to my ego
Quote of the day: Egoism is the very essence of a noble soul. - Nietzsche
Today I took the P90x fit test...here are the results:
My resting heart rate: 70
Pull-ups: 8 (with an assist)
Push-ups: 5
Toe Touch: +2 1/2
Wall Squat: 1 minute and 3 seconds
Bicep Curl: using 10 pounds in each hand- 10
In & Outs: 30
Heart Rate Maximizer - after 2 minutes of jumping jacks
Heart Rate immediately following: 150
One minute following: 120
Two minutes following: 84
Three minutes following: 82
Four minutes following: 80
What I ate today:
Protein Shake
Banana
Bison Burger - yummy with almost half the fat and calories of beef
Carrots
Apple
Iced Latte -Jess, you would be proud. I used a reusable cup :)
BBQ Chicken wrap
Doritos
Watermelon
Orange
Happy Summer!
-K
A Big P.S.
Apologies to the friend who complained about yesterdays post. I don't think Tom wants two girlfriends as of right now, but check back in seven more years (the "itch") he may change his mind ;)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Happy Birthday Tom!!!
Happy Birthday, Tom!
As many of you know Tom is pretty awesome. We met over 7 1/2 years ago and ever since then its always (almost) been him and me.
Now we live together with our hilarious dog, Sasha, and he has been my rock. Despite my ups and down in life he has been here. He knows my weaknesses and my strengths. He has seen me at my best and my worst. He knows all my flaws and has heard me bitch constantly about them all - and yet he loves me; he still shows me every single day that he loves me, even after 6 1/2 years of coupledom.
While I have a TON of great supporters -and I love you all, he (by far) is my biggest and best support of all. While sometimes I gripe that he is "micromanaging" me I know that he is doing all he can to help me reach my goal. And, baby, I love you for it. Not only has he helped me cook my "better for you" meals but he comes to the gym with me for moral support and he has listened with open ears and an empathetic heart when I need to obsessively talk about my journey.
Tom, without you and your love and support this would be a million times harder. Thank you. I love you!
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Shout out goes to Tom, for being awesome!
In true fashion of "us" the Quote of the day: I could be dreaming but I keep believing you're the one I'm living for. -Bobby D
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Tomorrow begins P90x!!! Woo
Food wise today was an eh day, Birthday celebration at the Cheesecake Factory. Cheesecake is a weakness of mine.
What I ate today:
Cheerios
Milk
Banana
Apple
Orange
Yogurt
Small piece of chicken
2 pieces of bread
One enchilada
Rice and Beans
A few bites of Cheesecake
Cappuccino
Watermelon
Much love
-K
As many of you know Tom is pretty awesome. We met over 7 1/2 years ago and ever since then its always (almost) been him and me.
Now we live together with our hilarious dog, Sasha, and he has been my rock. Despite my ups and down in life he has been here. He knows my weaknesses and my strengths. He has seen me at my best and my worst. He knows all my flaws and has heard me bitch constantly about them all - and yet he loves me; he still shows me every single day that he loves me, even after 6 1/2 years of coupledom.
While I have a TON of great supporters -and I love you all, he (by far) is my biggest and best support of all. While sometimes I gripe that he is "micromanaging" me I know that he is doing all he can to help me reach my goal. And, baby, I love you for it. Not only has he helped me cook my "better for you" meals but he comes to the gym with me for moral support and he has listened with open ears and an empathetic heart when I need to obsessively talk about my journey.
Tom, without you and your love and support this would be a million times harder. Thank you. I love you!
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Shout out goes to Tom, for being awesome!
In true fashion of "us" the Quote of the day: I could be dreaming but I keep believing you're the one I'm living for. -Bobby D
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Tomorrow begins P90x!!! Woo
Food wise today was an eh day, Birthday celebration at the Cheesecake Factory. Cheesecake is a weakness of mine.
What I ate today:
Cheerios
Milk
Banana
Apple
Orange
Yogurt
Small piece of chicken
2 pieces of bread
One enchilada
Rice and Beans
A few bites of Cheesecake
Cappuccino
Watermelon
Much love
-K
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