Today I did something that NEVER in my life I have dared to do. I got on a scale in front of Tom -the boyfriend.
Over the past 7 years I have tried fad diets, exercise programs, classes, yoga and Weight Watchers. I have lost and gained between 20 to 40 pounds over these years. I am the epitome of the "yo-yo" dieter.
I have a pretty good concept of myself. I am confident in who I am and what I do, however, I struggle with my weight. I struggle so much that my self esteem diminishes on some days because I feel so bad, physically. At the age of 25 (almost 26) I have as many health issues as my 61 year old father. However, by managing my "diet" I can gain more control of my health.
But today is different. The rest of my days are going to be different.
I am holding myself accountable; not just to myself but to all the people who care about me.
I am making a promise to myself to eat better, to be more aware of what I am putting into my body, and to get some more movement.
My relationship with food will have to change. (My most challenging task)
I will not be perfect, but that is not what I am striving for.
I will have good days.
I will be proud of myself for my good days.
I will have bad days.
I will forgive myself for my bad days.
*** I am realistic about my health goals. ***
I have made the decision to share this journey with you for many reasons, of which I will write about in the future. The biggest reason is that I hope that I can find support from all of you.
So here it is. I am getting on the scale in front of everyone.
At 5'8
Arms: 11 1/2 inches
Bust: 36"
Waist: 30"
Hips: 42" (gulp)
Thighs: 26"
BMI: 25.8 - overweight (Normal is between 18.5-24.9)
Body fat percentage:about 26% which equals to 44 pounds of fat that my body is carrying (normal body fat percentage is about 12-20 for women)
Last but not least...
Weight: 170 pounds
Goals:
Live longer due to better health
Feel better due to better health, increased movement
Increased self esteem, due to better health, increased movement and getting into that dress that now hugs every single "curve" I've got.
I am ready. I am ready to feel good, look good, and do a whole lot of push-ups.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
-K
I've got a whole bunch of really great recipes that i'm sure you can modify into healthy eating. i'm too broke to afford ingredients so my meals are mostly frozen and full of too much sodium, so i'd be glad to have someone actually use the recipes.
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Good for you. Guess what...you and I are exactly the same. My weight now, after losting 13 lbs is what yours is now. I know how you feel. I do the same gulp about my hips (some is genetic, as you know) My BMI is still around 29 and stays high even when I lose weight. Lucky for you, you are 3" taller than me. Anyway, you can do it and we can do it together. I'm almost 50 and my health and blood work sucks, this needs to be a way of life for me. BTW, curves are good - don't let anyone think you should want to be a stick. Us Kuenzigs have curves even when we lose weight. The first week will be the hardest and I promise it gets easier. Email me if you need any personal support!!! Patti
ReplyDeleteYou go, sister! I'm in the same boat as you in terms of the yo-yo dieting and genetically speaking. As you know, I've been losing weight these past four months and I've been pretty proud of what I've accomplished so far, especially now that people are starting to take notice and are complimenting me. But as you also know, as fast as I can take off weight I can also regain it just as quickly. I seriously think I could gain ten pounds in a week if left to my own devices. I think one of my biggest personal difficulties is figuring out just what moderation is for me--that it's good and normal and healthy to treat yourself and not to follow a very restrictive diet. I know that if I totally deprive myself of things that are not "healthy" I'm eventually going to binge and probably on something stupid that's not even worth it. On the other hand, I suffer from major self-control issues and can quite easily polish off, say, an entire sleeve or Oreos in one sitting. I'm not satisfied with two and a nice glass of milk like a person without a weight problem might be. The same thing is true with my exercise habits, where I have a tendency to have an all-or-nothing approach. I'm really struggling to find that middle ground and hopefully be able to get down to and maintain a healthy weight this time around without the inevitable creepage! Seriously, though, I feel your pain and let me know if you need any support!
ReplyDeleteI love you all so much! Thank you for the great comments! I will be posting (almost) daily.
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